The Journey Begins

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I'm sitting here on a plane, halfway to California, missing my kids. Dropping James off wasn't too bad... We had Jakey with us and between him & the business of drop off, it was easy to put on a cheerful face, do a quick hug & kiss with a promise to FaceTime once we landed. Dropping Jakey off was another story...he doesn't really understand that we'll be gone for 3 weeks, but in the quiet as we walked back to the car, I couldn't help but cry. I haven't ever been away from the boys for longer than a few days. I think that's the hardest thing about all of this...being away from them and the uncertainty of what my recovery will look like.  Will it be smooth and quick like last time? Will I struggle with speech problems? Will I recover the same level of functioning I have right now? All of that is unknown... Well, unknown to me.... I have to keep reminding myself that God knows all of it. And His plans are always better than our own.

Please pray that both Bobby & I continue to believe this and to seek His will. Pray that we will find comfort and strength knowing He is in control and surrendering to that.

In the meantime, I'm gonna take things as they come and enjoy the rare moments of quiet we are blessed with. A whole flight with just the two of us, about a million free movies to binge and a big plate lunch for dinner.

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